I've been in a coma and paralysis for quite a while. I'm not sure if anyone's noticed but yeah.. at least I have noticed some have missed me and whatnot and that's just fucking sweet. When I started blogging I imagined I'd hardly get one people to ever comment to me, but I got at least ten people to comment on a single entry, get into some quite lengthy conversations and get endless amusement from amusing others.
I started this stuff by reading comics out loud to my friends with stupid side comments, and watched them writhe in laughter, that's what I need and what I live for. I'm a clown and a monkey and I love it, it makes my breathing easier for many months.
But my life is a messsss right now. It's fucking crazy. I seriously sit inside my house, try to see my friends to keep sane while I wait for letters to drop in my filthy apartment, so I could know the date when my life moves forward a bit again. I got serious issues and BIG changes going on and I have absolutely no energy for anything else.
I was planning for an active year, but after having a nervous breakdown I decided not to stress it. Still, I'd like to do something with this account, I'd like to do some minientries and some funnies.. and not stress about big stuff. Goddammit I got so many ideas and so much will but fuck shit hell ugh..
Anyways, I also wanted to make this journal entry to say..
IF I HAVEN'T ANSWERED TO YOUR MESSAGE AND YOU'RE PISSED/TIRED OF WAITING, COMMENT HERE AND I'LL ANSWER YOU!
Seriously, I have the biggest guilt-trip ever after seeing all the messages! People have sent me links to AWESOME fucking comics, and I'm too much of a fuckass to answer any of them! Jesus! Some have even offered to send me physical copies of comics and.. just whoa, awesome.. I promise some day I can also offer to take them. Right now everything's too crazy for me to be able to take those offers..
You're all awesome. I miss my blog.
Okay, enough emo and whine. I also have a "real" account in here. I'm trying to use it for theraphy and socialisation. If you got a hunch what my other account is, send me a message, watch me, whatever. I won't admit anything on this account, though and I'll never advertise my other account in here. This stuff is purely "business", and I'd like to keep my messed-up personal life far away from it.
Listening to: Skinny Puppy - Love